039. take the reigns [roughdraft]

hopeful and naive,
i had told myself i wouldn't be that way this time,
but i never listen to myself sometimes.
the set up was perfect,
and i let myself in
                               completely
                               and with abandon.
i held back somewhat -
i let you take the reigns,
and every where you wanted to go, i went,
without objection,
                              without hesitance,
because i believed whereever you would take me,
there would always be a clear path to continue on
whatever trail we were t r e k k i n g.
but apparently there was a
fork           road,
        in the
and you let go of the reigns,
and set off onto the other path,
leaving me in the middle - not knowing what path to take.
i let you take the reigns.
i let you take the reigns.
i let you take the reigns and you were not supposed to let go,
not without showing me where the paths would lead,
not without telling me that i am not what you need.
it was unexpected of you; i did not expect this from you.
i thought you understood the fragility of a heart.
just as easily as it can skip a beat for you,
it can be broken, damaged, ripped apart.
and i don't understand how we could have felt so close,
yet now the distance, oh, the distance is so far, so far,
and i'm not talking about the miles,
but of everything that made us who we were and are.
and here i am, still waiting at that fork in the road.
i let you take the reigns.
you need to tell me
where
to
go.




_{yeah, not sure how i feel about this one. i'll probably omit a few lines and reword some here and there. hmmm...}