070. "i always knew" - tilly and the wall.

i've lived my life inside daydream lies,
imaginary friends that always knew one day i'd leave for good.
i'll give away this girl who tried to make you fall in love,
i'll give her to you so keep her close to you.
so you won't forget about how she loved you so long ago once upon a time.
now she has grown up, and you can't take it back.

a lullaby won't change my mind, and i won't ever go back to that.
i will stay true to this belief that we've changed for the best through this.

separate the ones who know you from the ones who couldn't bother to see you for all that you are.
and deep down i always knew all the times i thought that i loved you,
it was just an easy answer, it was make believe,
but i still believe that this heart will learn to love.

069. future.

sometimes do you wonder whether the choices you make to do or not do certain things will truly benefit your future?

068. quick recap.

wow, i most certainly have not posted on my blog in a while.
so here's a quick recap of what's been going on:

+ A- and a B in my summer school classes. :)
+ paul has moved into the apartment; it's fun living with 2 of my closest friends (genevieve and paul), both of whom i know i can rely on in times of need. :)
+ we still haven't fully organized our stuff - kitchen & living room. ahhhh. but, wow, we have 3 couches and there's still tons of space! hahahaha.
+ my classes seem pretty fun/doable; it's just gonna be a lot of work. busy busy busy. must not stray this semester. must stay on task.
+ my cousin, ryan, came on thursday and he, genevieve, and i watched mae w/ as tall as lions and dear and the headlights at bottom of the hill in san francisco. fun fun.
+ i think ryan's coming back next thursday.
+ I AM OBSESSED WITH UGLY BETTY and have been lacking sleep due to watching paul's dvds of the first season and i watched the last 3 episodes yesterday and I WANT THE NEW SEASON TO START ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and last, but DEFINITELY NOT LEAST,
I AM IN SOCAL THIS WEEKEND! :) but it's going to mostly be parent-filled since i am immobile (can't drive cuz i'm not on the insurance right now -- it gets turned on during my long vacations so i can drive) and i'd like to spend more time with them :) oh, PLUS, it'll also be HOMEWORK filled seeing as tuesday and wednesday i have 36985623865 things due for all my classes.
quick cups of coffee and chat may be possible, however. :]